Faux Symptoms

2wwI think any woman who is trying to get pregnant (or who has ever tried to get pregnant) would agree with me when I say the two week wait is the worst! It seems like the closer you get to the end of it, the worse it is. By the time my period is due I am absolutely convinced that I am pregnant! In the past 2 1/2 years, I was only right once, but that doesn’t keep me from using every normal premenstrual symptom as confirmation that I am pregnant.

Following ovulation, I always caution myself against getting carried away. I am on board and ready. I will not listen to my body and let the pregnancy test at the end of the two weeks let me know if I am actually pregnant. But then I will feel a small abdominal twinge, which let’s face it…is probably just gas, and then those little nagging “what-if” thoughts start to pop up in the back of my mind. Then when you add the tender breasts, change in bathroom habits and extreme fatigue to the mix, those little thoughts have turned into full blown pregnancy symptoms before I know it. It doesn’t matter how much I try to be level headed about this, the two week wait just builds up anticipation that leads me to a disappointing negative pregnancy test. Oh, but if only it ended there. I have to take a pregnancy test pretty much every day for the next week, you know, just in case…

Then the cycle just repeats itself. I’m currently only half way through my most recent two week wait so the real PMS symptoms have yet to begin. By now, I know what to expect and am trying to prepare myself, but who am I kidding, I know I will fall right back into the trap. Hopefully one day soon I will get that positive test I’ve been waiting for. I know that will make this entire emotional roller coaster worth it!

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